Saturday, November 12, 2011

What's your favorite Color?

My absolutely favorite color is green. It looks good on me because I'm a red head. What is it about green and red hair that goes well together besides looking like I am celebrating Christmas whenever I wear it.
I'm honestly shocked I don't own more green items. I think I keep myself from going overboard, so I hold back a great deal. This picture on People this morning had my head spinning...this dress that Gwen Paltrow is wearing is G-O-R-G-E-O-U-S!!

Now if I could afford it and find somewhere to wear it I'd be set. Until then I will stare longingly at it green with envy.
Speaking of green, how awesome is this vintage stove I found on pinterest. I would love to have it, but it would never fit my design style, but man, it's that's awesome.
Here is a photo that reminds me of my childhood. It's my grandfather's truck that's parked under the barn back home. I have many funny memories from growing up about that big green truck!
What's your favorite color?

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

It's the Final Countdown

....To the Bahamas!!

This is for our yearly birthday trip with my sister and our mutual bestie. I'm super excited. We are flying to Miami, jumping on a BIG A$$ boat and floating to the Bahamas. I am super excited. I really shouldn't be this excited considering this will be my 30th birthday. When you celebrate your birthday with a trip with your two most favorite women then you have reason to be happy, no matter the age number.

We started this tradition back in 2006. Instead of birthday gifts and Christmas gifts, we spend the money on a weekend trip each year. That way we are guaranteed to spend at least one weekend a year all together.

Oh, I can hear paradise calling.... I need to answer this call. Paradise told me...." I guh see you on duh beach."

Sunday, November 6, 2011

Saturday Night Activities

My Saturday night in pictures...

(A Stuart Woods book)

(Dark Hot Chocolate via Kuerig and the new Real Simple)

(Cold night by the fire, wrapped in a blanket)

Tonight got me to thinking about Friday and Saturday nights when I was younger. You know, when you had to get dressed up, go out to loud, smokey bars and yell at your friends because carrying on a conversation in normal voice tone is out of the question.

Good lawd I'm glad I'm beyond that. That was exhausting!! Also I'm glad I'm married, because if I hadn't have met my husband several years ago, I'm afraid that I would be single forever because I would never leave my house to meet people.

Tonight is a good example why being an old married fart is a good thing.

Saturday, November 5, 2011

For The Record

Do you believe in signs? Miranda Lambert's new album For the Record was released on November 1, 2011. (11/1/11), the same day as what would have been Daddy's 58th birthday. One of her songs on the new album brings out a lot of emotions, just read the lyrics....

(The story behind the song is that it's about Blake Shelton's brother who died in a car accident)

Weather man said it's gonna snow
By now I should be used to the cold
Mid-February shouldn't be so scary
It was only December
I still remember the presents, the tree, you and me

But you went away
How dare you?
I miss you
They say I'll be OK
But I'm not going to ever get over you

Living alone here in this place
I think of you, and I'm not afraid
Your favorite records make me feel better
Cause you sing along
With every song
I know you didn't mean to give them to me

But you went away
How dare you?
I miss you
They say I'll be OK
But I'm not going to ever get over you

It really sinks in, you know, when I see it in stone

Cause you went away,
How dare you?
I miss you
They say I'll be OK
But I'm not going to ever get over you

FOR THE RECORD...It brings raw emotion out of me. The line "It really sinks in, you know, when I see it in stone" is a good explanation why I don't go to Daddy's grave very often. I can honestly count the time I've been on one hand. It's almost been three years. The times I've gone, I get there stare at the slab and think this is silly....It's just a slab with his name in it...It shouldn't have the second date on it. It shouldn't be here. It to difficult to deal with.

FOR THE RECORD...I've run from my emotions, I try to ignore them, I try to hide them. Not just from myself, from everyone. I seem like I am this together, sane, sarcastic person. I joke about what I've experienced losing my Dad, I joke because the truth and reality is that the pain is just to unbearable to let surface. It's inescapable. It's always deep inside just waiting for the right moment to surface.

FOR THE RECORD...My heart has a hole in it that will never go away, and I honestly feel that I will never be truly 100% happy ever again. I have a great husband, I have two fantastic dogs that I adore, I have amazing friends and family, but I know I am missing one person that I want to share the good moments in life with.

FOR THE RECORD...Maybe I'll always be a broken person. I'm not sure, I just take it one day at a time. Some days are shitty, some days are good, some days are indifferent. Most days I just try to ignore the fact that he's gone. I've lost the ability to care about others pain, I don't want to be like that, but it's hard not to. One day my heart will soften and I might be able to cry for someone else's pain, something other than my own, but as of now I have to focus on fixing my heart, my pain, and my emotional well being. emotional well being....I'm one train stop away from crazy town.

FOR THE RECORD...The picture at the top fit's the post perfectly. The song-snow in December. The past few weeks of pain-Daddy's truck is in the photo, I traded it in last week, which was so hard and painful to do.

Friday, November 4, 2011

Pinterest: Friday Humor

I'm pretty sure that's what Tank and Gus' reaction would be.

See they stopped in their tracks when I told them the news.....

It's okay to let your Friday go to the dogs!

Fitness Friday

My usual Friday is like this: I come to work with my workout bag and think I will work out after work like I do on other days, but then we get an announcement that we can leave early, and I am in my car heading South to the house and well there goes the workout.

Since I know this is my behavior, I decided to beat the system (my personal system above) by rolling out of bed, putting on my gym clothes and coming straight to work (we have a gym here). Since my work clothes were picked out the night before and bag was packed, I got out of the house and was in the gym at 7:30 and at 8:15 I was getting ready to make my commute to work...a less that one minute walk from one end of the building to my office. Literally my office and the gym are on the far ends of the building from each other!

Mission accomplished...I worked out today. I've decided that not only do I have to think about what I'm thankful for each day in November, I also have to do some sort of fitness...EVERYDAY!!

As for my thankfulness....I am thankful for the relationship I have with my sister and our mutual best best friend. They are two bestest friends a girl could have!!

Thursday, November 3, 2011

What are you Thankful for....

First I must get Kelly Clarkson singing "Thankful" out of my head....

I'm challenging myself to be grateful and thankful for everything in my life. The challenge is to take a moment each day and reflect on one thing. I am a pessimistic person, for the most part, I have a lot of hate. After losing my Dad almost three years ago, it's like someone swooped in and pulled something out of me that was responsible for caring, happiness, and being grateful for
what I still have in my life. Most of the time my happiness is dragged down by what I am Dad. I wonder if I will ever be 100% happy ever again. Hopefully this challenge will give me a chance to reflect on the good things in my husband (still getting use to that word) that is willing to put up with me, my two sweet, wonderfully snuggly, and adorable pups, my family, and I could go on an on. My challenge is to focus on what I have and not what I don't have (or once had, but now don't).

It's three days into the month and here's what I got: