30

Most people are sad when they hit the milestone of their 30th birthday. NOT ME! For some reason, I have taken thirty to be a reason to embrace who I really am. BE ME!

If I want to wear sequins to dinner on a Saturday night for no reason other than because I want to wear sequins...by darn...I'm wearing sequins.

Most people have circumstances to bringing them to understand themselves, appreciate themselves, love themselves (in a good way, not conceited way), and enjoy being the human being that God made them. There is no circumstance, just a number. 30. I guess after the first 30 years, I realized, I am who God made me. I am who I am:

I can be a tom boy, I can be a girly girl.

I can be a potty mouth, I can hymn singer.

I can be airheaded, I can be pull together.

I can be country, I can be city.

I can be quiet, I can be loud.

I can be reserved, I can be outgoing.

I can drink wine, I can do shots.

I can be a minimalist, I can be gaudy.

I can be caring, I can be catty.

I am a lot of things and well if you don't like it, I am so sorry, I can't help you on that, seems to me you have a problem with not being accepting of yourself.

I am proud of the woman I have become over the past 30 years. Those years have been filled with heart break, heartache, proud moments, sad moments, life shattering moments, and happy moments. Each one of those moments brought me to where I currently am. I can't change the past as much as I would like. I have to accept the dice that God threw for me. It's like being at the craps table....some times you crap out, and then there you go rolling your number and making bank on the odds.

30....Bring it Beeeyotch!!

Birthday Trip 2012

I'll talk more about this later, but I wanted to post my new favorite picture of us three. I did everyone's hair this night. I think we all look bellissimo!!

2012

Every New Year I sing the words from Rent in my head....

525,600 minutes

How do you measure- measure a year?

In Daylights - In Sunsets - In Midnights - In Cups Of Coffee- In Inches - In Miles- In Laughter - In Strife

We seem to not think about the year we just lived until it's over. In 2011, I got married and our family grew by one dog. It was a fantastic year. Was it the best yet? I don't know. I don't like when people say, "It was the best year of my life!" How do you know that? You can't know that until your life is over. That's the blessing with a new year, it's a clean slate to see what God has in store for you. It could be a bad year to show you that good years are ahead and to not take the good years in the past for granted. 2009 was by bad year, and it was devestatingly bad, heartbreakingly sad, and unfortuntately not forgettable. That's why God give us the next year, start fresh and the opportunity to love more, give more, and learn from the year behind. We keep on the circle of learning until we are at our end.

I've decided not to have a yearly resolution, because face it, who makes it past February with those. I've decided that I will have 52 weekly resolutions. Each week a new feat.

Week 1- Work out 5 days

Week 2- No soda

Week 3-52- haven't decided yet. I'll just see what needs to be resolved in my life week to week.

I believe this is going to be more attainable, at least I hope so.

I hope everyone lives 2012 to the best of there ability...you only get one '12- MAKE IT COUNT!